Be as you are.

i feel so lost , & no life .

life gets bitchy everynow & dhen , bullshit .
ive really no mood . im angry , sad , yet happy . im going crazy .
i've nt been paying attention in class these few days .
so dont put on high hopes on me , i seriously cant make it .
there's many problems im facing , bt i think i shall solve it myself .
just suddenly , i heard some news . i felt rather stupid , for nt cherishing YOU .
i said i wanted t do this , YOU told me nt too . but i've learnt it .
& now , things got messed up because of this , but i had my reasons .
ask me what isit , i'll tell .
YOU found an excuse , & i felt wrong . i knw smething must have happened .
YOU refuse t tell me . & finally , i found what's wrong . i really feel guilty ,
& everything made me guilty . i really wanna say this word , but im banned .
so i guess , i shall just say ' I LOVE YOU , DEEPLY ' . im really really asking for forgiveness .
i wonder what is it now , agn . had i done something wrong ?
i dont knw what u're doing , i dont knw where u are .
im missing u like i'd lost YOU forever . come back )':

alright , sorry for not posting for ystd . lesser tags huh . i think i shall take away tagboard then .
safe spaces . ystd , instead of going with yt , zy & e , i went with dearie & sweetheart .
ate pizza as usual . went bck t fern , dhen home . cant download audi . so gave up .
didnt study at all . so rotted with sist . ate zigger , bought by mom later .
watched tv all dhe way , dhen chatted with baby on dhe phone .
was rather sad , cause i was thinking too much . im trying t stop too .
slept after tht , had a stupid night mare .

today , was fxxking tired . got up & got blamed for being late .
argued bck . was dam fxxked up . bloody sist , big fxxk man .
school was fine , except chinese class . i hate tht bitchy teacher .
its a fact tht she doesnt knws hw t teach . i think she's a emotionless bitch .
her voice suck big time pls , its fxxking sickening .
did some work , dhen off t recess . ate my favourite fried rice agn .
dhen head t class for literature class . yawns , i rather stay home t sleep man .
after tht was english , this teacher was rather GL . his face sucks .
went for D&T , was slacking all dhe way . was sending songs & sharing pictures ,
cause ah charn didnt gave us any work t do . yayy ! its th last lesson of lit & dnt today .
MYE's just tmr . it aint important , cause its chinese ._.
chinese is bullshit man . its a waste of time . i hope i get f9 c(:
after school , waited for bus so long , dhen reached compass . dhen home .
didnt really have dhe mood dhen .
but before tht , got kinderjoys . now im broke ):
well , im kinda addicted t it . i wan more ! get me someeeeee !
im fxxking bored now . dk if i should continue t download audi .
okays , i've got nothing much t post alrdy . shall post till here dhen :)
byebye ^^

-i love you baby :)